why?

why?
why i couldn't get something that i wish to have?
why i couldn't do something that i wish to do?
why nobody could understand what i want?

am i such annoying?
why i need to be stick with him everytime?
since he seems like doesn't like it very much...
or
i am too sensitive?

i don't know
maybe the answer is the 2nd...
i don't even know
and i don't wish to know...
let it be my secret


im thinking too much
non-stop
everyday

everything that i think is
rubbish
ridiculous
absurd
and stupid
isn't it?

and, im not balance...
in life
in my love life

yes, i admit, im too sensitive
and i couldn't change it
isn't it is every girl 'talent'?
or just me?
such 'different'
such 'unique'...

i hate my life