emotionalism

don't have a good feeling today...
think about something again...
think that why he can do it to another but not me
maybe because im his gf?
so i should stay in house with him?
but not date me to some place...

in the other way,
i should think that he can do something to me but not to another...
but what's the thing?

sometimes i think is better to be his friends
so that i could date him to anywhere...
he won't refused his friends right?
but now
i have seen a little change of him
start to refuse his friend because of me
date me to somewhere i wanted to go
accompany me all the time...
but
i seems like not satisfied
i don't know why
maybe
im still the person who date him more than he date me
accompany me but mostly is chit chat in his house
or maybe
im still unbalanced
because of something that happened when we was broke?
he seems like happier on that 1 month compare with 2 years with me
i don't know the reason
i try to satisfied everything he does to me
but i like to compare
with somebody
i know that's a big problem for us
since he don't like it
maybe im really unbalanced
need time huh...
but i think it might take a long time for me

i scared,
once my heart is unbalanced
i will lose more and more feelings towards him
i really scare this thing to happen...
but what can i do?
i can do nothing...

let's time decide it...

loves
chloe tan

ps: i found that blogging is a part of my life now...
its a good way to express my feeling..