lol

lol
playing poker until almost forget to write my blog
i already found it boring to play that game
plat for 3 hours but still maintain at 20k++
ahhh...gave up

we good back again...lol
it's really my fault
i knew it
but i really don't know how to change
nobody teach me
nobody advice me
everyone just tell me that
''do something for your future''
''you can do it'' ''don't simply give up, i knew you can''
lol
too wide for me
i don't know where to start
and how to start

since then
today i suddenly realize that my bf really love me so so so so so much
although i gave up myself
and said many thing that hurts him
he still don't even think to give me up
and try hard to maintain this relationship
i found that he's so lovely
i love him!!
but then
i felt guilty and pity of him because having a gf like me
sorry
i really hope that i can change
but i found myself being worse day by day
anyone know any physiology doctor at kuantan?
i need it
to cure myself
im serious!!!
im suffer of being whom am i
and suffer of hurting my beloved

anywhoos
my mood is getting better today
hope that it will be fine tomorrow
god bless me
and you

loves
chloe tan