sorry

sorry
for making out my mind and make this decision
i had think about our relationship for the past 5 days
no, it mean for the past 5 months
it's really gonna stop here
and wont be continue anymore...

don't waste your time for begging me anymore
it's not worth
and it wont change my mind of doing this

i know this is hurt for u
me either
but there's no other choices to choose
we are from different world
yet different kind of people
your lifestyle
your hobby
your motive
are totally different from mine
and so does mine

love isn't that easy
we love each other and we really meant it
but somehow
we can't live together
i can't go into your world and you can't go into mine
i really tried hard for this-
go into your world,
make friend with your friends,
tried to like something you like,
and tried to be with you everyday,
so that we could go for even longer
but it's really useless
at last,
i still in my own world and you are in yours
we are still be with our very own friends and do for our very own business
there's no any related between mine and your life
this type of relationship is totally meaningless for me
sorry

we wont get any longer with this
i should stop this relationship long time ago
i thought i could change this and i gave us many chances
but at last
it's still the same...
these days
i think about it again
should there be any chances?
no, a big no NO NO
no doubt

yes
i did really care for the past
because that's the 1st time you cheated me
GOD help me to find out the truth myself
i found a blog accidentally and that lead me to the moment
for the days im not here...
and gave me up just for the date you had already plan earlier..
before that, i knew nothing
it's really hurts me
this already past and there's no need for me to mention it here, now
i don't want to care whose wrong & whose right anymore
but there's a scar there
a deep scar
maybe you are too perfect for me before that
and i can't accept when you done such a big mistake to me
i don't even know who are you contact with for being together for 2 years
i thought i'm the only one you contact with
but the truth is
i know nothing about your personal life
it's a failure and it's my fault
i can't blame any others

after that happening
i found myself can't trust you anymore
i even can't trust myself!
i suspect all the time and this really make us tired!!
i did console myself
but i really cant do it
sorry
it's my own problem
i found that i can't accept any love you gave anymore
so i choose to giving up this relationship...

i know you will be okay without me
at least, wont be worse
all you need is time & friends
to forget everything about us
i know you could do it someday

please do let me go
i really can't be with you anymore
and i wont happy be with you
i sad & frustrated all the time...
there's no need for you to prepare for my birthday
i know your heart
and that's already enough for me
save your money & energy for your own future
sorry again

last from me
i bless you...
we can't be friend anymore
it's hard for us
as i agreed of what your friend said
'' we cant be friend after broke up, because we hurt each other before''
''we cant be enemy, because we love each other before''
''we could only be strangers that know each other''
sorry for the last

sincerely
chloe tan

what love is

如果你不爱一个人,
请放手.
好让别人有机会爱她.

如果你爱的人放弃了你,
请放开自己,
好让自己有机会爱别人.


有的东西你再喜欢也不会属于你的,
有的东西你再留恋也注定要放弃的.

人生中有许多种 .
但别让自己为一种伤害.

有些缘分是注定要失去的,
有些缘分是永远都不会有好结果的,

爱一个人不一定要拥有,
但拥有一个人就一定要好好的去爱她.

男人哭了是因为他真的爱了.
女人哭了是因为她真的放弃了.

如果真诚是一种伤害,
我选择谎言;

如果谎言一种伤害,
我选择沉默;

如果沉默是一种伤害,
我选择离开.

如果失去是苦，
你怕不怕付出 ,

如果迷乱是苦，
你会不会选择结束,

如果追求是苦，
你会不会选择执迷不悟 ,

如果分离是苦，
你要向谁倾诉,

好多事情都是后来才看清楚,
好多事情当时一点也不觉得苦!!!!

...........

what had i done?????????
sigh...

must read!!!

一天女孩過生日，男孩子在她生日的聚會上送了她一只可愛的毛毛熊，
在各種生日禮物中，這根本算不上是禮物．
女孩有些生氣，也許更多的是憤怒，沒想到自己男朋友這麼小氣，
今天是她的生日，還來了這麼多朋友．
去年男孩在她生日的時候送了她一把很名貴的藏刀，
男孩發誓說，如果有一天他背叛了女孩，
女孩可以用刀劃破他的胸膛．

今年，兩個人一直在討論兩個人的未來，
這麼多朋友都來為女孩慶祝生日，
是男孩說在生日哪天會給女孩一個終生難忘的禮物．
結果似乎一切都出乎大家的以外，當然主要是女孩！
面對女孩憤怒的眼神，男孩只是壞壞的笑，這份禮物真的讓女孩終生難忘．
女孩在聚會中喝了很多酒，而男孩只是在旁邊静静的喝着可樂．

聚會結束，他們要回到自己的小家，
上了公路，女生一直很憤怒，一直在埋怨，
車的後排座放了很多名貴的禮物，當然還有那只毛毛熊.
女生開始抱怨男孩不愛她，不珍惜他們的愛，
男孩只是静静的開着車，什麼也沒有說，偶然會有一絲笑在臉上．

酒精在衝動的驅使下發作了．女孩吐了，
男孩靠邊停了車，
女孩大發脾氣，指責男孩給了她這樣一個不愉快的生日，說了一些很傷感情的事情，
男孩一直無語，只是一只手拿着紙巾，一只手拿着礦泉水．
女孩突然跑到了公路中間，
男孩沒有拉住她，兩個人就這樣在公路上拉扯着．
突然，一輛飛馳的快車直奔兩個人行駛過來，
男孩想都沒想的扔掉了手中的東西推開了女孩，
女孩的頭重重的摔到了地上...

等她蘇醒的時候，她已經躺在了醫院，頭上綁着繃帶．
那輛飛速行駛汽車的司機，証明是酒後駕車．
男孩被撞出了15米，
當救護車到的時候，他嘴裡一邊吐着血一直說着
〃别管我，看我女朋友怎麼樣？〃
到了醫院，男孩已經去了另一個世界，
他最後的一話是毛毛熊，毛毛熊在他的要求下，被醫護人員帶上了救護車，
他在這個世界上最後的一段路，就是這只小熊一直陪着他

女孩得知男孩離去的消息，一直在哭，哭的昏过去了好幾次．
一個有心的護士把小熊送到了她的枕邊．
女孩再一次從昏厥中醒來，看着小熊上邊有着男孩的血，似乎有着男孩的體温，
她緊緊的把它抱在了胸前，輕輕的摸着它．
突然摸一件很硬的東西，女孩從小熊的口袋裡摸出了一件東西，
一個戒指盒，裡面有一隻漂亮的鑽石戒指，
女孩看到這一切，切底崩潰了．
她拼命的哭，用力的撕着自己的頭髮和頭上的繃带，但是一切似乎都没有意義了．

女孩去了停屍間，那是的男孩身上的血跡已經被擦干，
他干干净净的，安詳的躺在那裡，嘴角還是有着一絲壞壞的笑，
女孩用手摸着男孩的頭，淚水從眼角劃落，她不想哭出聲，因為男孩不喜歡她哭...

女孩第二天就出院了，回到了他們曾經愛的港灣．
打開房門，她被眼前的一切嚇呆了，
房間裡滿是玫瑰，桌子上有一個大大的蛋糕，
旁邊的一個保温餐盒和一張卡片
打開餐盒裡面是她最愛喝的湯， 打開卡片裡面寫着：
嫁给我，你一輩子都不會後悔，你一輩子都會感覺温暖，我會一輩子讓你幸福，我會一直守侯在你的身邊，我會每天叫你起床，為你做你喜歡的早餐，送你上班,時刻惦記你，随時給你電話和信息，不讓孤獨的感覺伴隨你一時一刻,晚上我會接你下班，為你做晚飯，晚上讓你在我的懷中睡去後再静静睡去．家裡事情你做主，但是家務還是我來吧，我身體比較好點．如果應酬，我會在11點前回家，如果出差我會把你這幾天食物準備好，當然還有你愛吃的零食．其實愛情就是簡簡單單兩個人的幸福，我們的幸福才剛剛開始，希望……

女孩再也看不下去了，
她看到了房間裡仿佛滿使他們的歡聲笑語，滿是他們的蜜語甜言，
往日的情景一下子，涌入了她的心頭，她在自責，在懊悔，在埋怨……
想着到底是誰背叛了那曾經美好的東西．
曾經的幸福這個時候變的尖銳，曾經的歡笑這個時候變的灰色．

男孩火化的那天女孩沒有去，
女孩一個人静静的呆在他們愛的港灣，躺在他們經常做愛的床上，
看着他們出去旅游时的錄像，
輕輕的用去年生日哪天男孩送他那把藏刀割開了自己的手腕……
窗頭放着一張卡片：
親愛的我來了，沒有你的日子我好難過．是我錯了，你走的這幾天，我一直在回味我們在一起的日子，你的體温你的氣味你的壞笑和你做的飯，你是個騙子你說過一生守護我的，沒有你，一個人睡覺好冷的，沒有你做飯我肚子好餓，沒有你在身邊我好孤單，你慢點走，我來了，雖然你沒有實現你的承諾，但是我還是真的愛你，壞蛋我來了，慢點走，在前面等我，我來了……
.
.
.
.
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戀愛中的朋友們。。好好珍惜吧。。也許這個世界沒有那麼完滿的愛．但是這個世界有着最愛你的人和你最愛的人．當最愛你的人和你最愛的人是一個人的時候，告訴你．你是幸福的，有些人往往是三角戀，也許你不懂我的愛．我想看了這篇日誌你應該明白點吧．呵呵 不說了 希望看完這篇日誌的人珍惜眼前的一切 不要因為一點小事鬧大架

71

im thinking of visiting you
thinking of how was i been when your last got sick
and how was you been when i got sick
but i know you wont welcome me for that

im suffer of hiding my own feeling in front of people
there is no way to release it out
im tired of forcing myself to be happy all the time
godknowswhy

the blog is only contain 50% of my real feeling
but it's still better than nothing
yea
i am nothing
and i got nothing here

i should start a new blog
to write my own feelings
the 100% ones
this time
no one can see bout it
since i've already get used to it to hide my own feelings
or just dont want to make people worry of me
LOL...am i thinking too much?
who cares? who is worrying of?
nobody would know how i feels from now on

regards
chloe tan

sux life @ kuantan

too much of things happen here

i had thinking too much
love too much
bother too much
care too much
hurts too much

no one can be trusted
no one can be shared
no one can be cared

im just someone who needs by nobody
here @ kuantan

i should leave here
leave this meaningless place
leave the people here
because
there isnt anything worth for me to stay down anymore
there isnt anyone who can sustain me
even my family

maybe
i shouldnt come kuantan 3 years ago
i shouldnt know you!!
it's all my fault!!
just disappear from my life
forever

a simple life

i would be happier

although im single
although i feels lonely sometimes
although i have nobody to accompany me even just for a movie
or for a tea
although i dont have place to go when lazy for studies

but at least

i dont need to care what somebody did
where somebody went
dont need to worry or care about somebody

im alone here
lonely till wanna vomit
wanna cry
but i have a simple life

i know you will live happier without me too
at least, u have lots of friends
who can accompany you to done something you like

in this blog
i had written too much thing of us
written too much of giving up post
but surely
this would be the last time we could break up
no more

i will kept this blog as a memory of us
although it contains lots of sad cases

dont think of me anymore
time passed everything
find a girl that can suite your life
i know you could find it one day

i bless you
sincerely
not just a rubbish

regards
chloe tan

post

10 meaningful sentences i found at my email

1st
如果我们之间有1000步的距离
你只要跨出第1步
我就会朝你的方向走其余的999步
　　
2nd
通常愿意留下来跟你争吵的人
才是真正爱你的人
　　
3rd
付出真心　才会得到真心
却也可能伤得彻底
保持距离　就能保护自己
却也注定永远寂寞
　　
4th
有时候　不是对方不在乎你
而是你把对方看得太重
　　
5th
朋友就是把你看透了
还能喜欢你的人
　　
6th
就算是believe
中间也藏了一个lie
　　
7th
真正的好朋友
并不是在一起就有聊不完的话题
而是在一起　就算不说话
也不会感到尴尬
　　
8th
没有一百分的另一半
只有五十分的两个人
　　
9th
为你的难过而快乐的　是敌人
为你的快乐而快乐的　是朋友
为你的难过而难过的
就是那些　该放进心里的人
　　
10th
冷漠　有时候并不是无情
只是一种避免被伤害的工具

ended

envy of these couples

looking for Travis Tan Chin Boon & his gf, AiXia Shah, who is a mix parentage love each other so much. they are the one who i found have a lot of pictures at facebook. i think they are number 1 at it. envy. look for their love story, and their picture, they seems like happy everyday and have a same great smile on each faces on their pictures. looking for their blog, it's so lovely as i could say 'bless you' by myself. that's the most lovely couple i had ever seen so far.

but the problems coming. AiXia is a mix parentage who mix chinese and malay, in the other word, she is islamic. would Travis sacrifice himself, his family just to be together with her? im looking forward for it. i hope they would happily ever after and solve their problem as soon. =)


back to the main theme

someone told me, couple should be happy everyday, who will smile when think of each other

and another one did, every couple got their own problem, no one is perfect, the problem is could they face it?

last one, if they really love you, they wont let you to be unhappy everyday


for the 1st one, i answer: yes, that's right, maybe i have that feels a year ago. but no more now. some more, i got a feel of hateness for some reasons.

for the 2nd one, i answer: yeap, this is true too, but we didnt seems want to face the problems we had, and the main problem is, we couldnt solve the problem we got

for the last one, i answer: maybe is my own problem to unhappy about. he did make me happy, but it seems like it's once in a blue moon


and now, i ask myself
am i happy now?
what i want for the most?
what do i want him for?
what does me, as a gf meant to him?


1st, seriously, no

2nd, i just want a lovely, simple, happy relationship. but i know for us, it's hard than everything

3rd, i want something that he couldnt do forever, because that's his ambition and i hate it extraordinary. i mean the people there. i hate clubbers. and this would never changed. maybe i will go for club someday, but surely, im going with the feels of unhappy.

4th, i think, nothing. he wont find me for tea, wont find me for movie, wont find me for breakfast, lunch nor dinner, have his own fun with his friend, didnt have any plan for us. yes, another once in a blue moon. im just the one who annoy him and need him to accompany me all the time. maybe im just a so called 'gf', who accompany him when no one find him going out, not a gf when he's out. or maybe just a satisfier, who satisfied whatever he need. im nothing for him, except for the words 'this is my gf'.

lastly
i had decided to over this kind of relationship.
i decided it after 3 days of thinking whole night, sorry
i know you will see this post one day, maybe in a very short period of time

1st to tell you, dont need to do anything or delete any notification on facebook, coz it's a big network, i will see it even not from your account. and dont try to cheat anything, since i got no more relationship with you.

2nd, we are ended and don't even a friend, i dont think we could be friend since then. im not as generous as you thought. and maybe stranger is better for us to face each other next time we meet accidentally.

3rd, i know you will live better, and so does i. i prefer single. because, im still lonely even i have a bf. and at least, i dont need to bother bout someone that doesnt really care for my feeling. maybe, maybe you will treat me nicely, but i know, it only remain for 2 days or just simply 2 hours. i dont want a relationship like that. i would be happier if im single.

4th, for sure, this is not your fault but me. if you wanna told other something bad about me, just do it. and im sorry for the way i let go

today is 4th nov 2009
means that we had been together for 3 years and 2 months, no doubt
and this period of time will not increase anymore, it will remain for '3 years 2 months' since now, forever.
we are ended.

bye, sorry and take care

the ring had been taken out, and it wont back to it's original position anymore.

regards
chloe tan

i will survive

I'm sorry for the way i let go
Of everything i wanted when you came along
But i am never beaten, broken, not defeated
I know next to you is not where i belong

And it's a little late for explanations
There isn't anything that you can do
And my eyes hurt,
hands shiver,
so you will listen when i say baby

I don't want to
Stay another minute
I don't want you
To say a single word

There is no other way
I get the final say

Because
I don't want to
Do this any longer
I don't want you
There's nothing left to say

I've already spoken
Our love is broken

First i was afraid i was petrified
Kept thinking i could never live without you by my side
But i spent so many nights thinking how you did me wrong
But i grew strong
I learned how to carry on

Hush hush hush hush
I've already spoken
Our love is broken

Oh no, not, i will survive
As long as i know how to love
I know i will stay alive
I've got all my life to live
I've got all my love to give
But i'll survive
I will survive

There's no other way
I get the final say

I don't want to do this any longer
I don't want you
There's nothing left to say

I've already spoken
Our love is broken

care

i feels the care
from somebody
who likes to care me

but maybe
it will be better if it's from somebody else

it's hard to get it now i know

forget bout it
going start a new week tomorrow
i hate monday >"<

frustrated

what should i do?

for the 1st time
i dont know what can i do
or what can i say

i had been remain silence for the whole day

im tired of this kind of life

i got no any motive & target
for live
for love
for study
for career

i hate this kind of life!!


i just want a simple life
simple love life

but it seems harder than anything else


is there anyone that could console me?
is there anyone that could help me?
is there anyone that could share with me?

no one
not even a single one
im alone

im frustrated

take care~~

please
take a really good care of yourself

loves
chloe tan

=)

recently bought items =)


1st one
a vacuum
bought it when parkson ''super grand'' sales
those sales mall with crowded people around =.=''
i bought this at 30%
(should be 50% if i beg the people there xD)
quite a nice one
my car would be in clean mode from now on =D
i mean inside
outside?
doesn't guarantee~~xD

this cost me 104 bucks >"<
surely not my own money


2nd
a pair of earings
bought it @ padini when chui teng's birthday
long time since last shopping
cost me 9 bucks of this
but still
i love it
coz it's so unique ^^


earing with broken pieces in it~♥

last one
the best & satisfied one
a pair of sunglasses
bought at teng's birthday too
tried really hard for it
i found it quite suite me =)
love it~~

2 pairs for rm30
i got one, either teng
bought as her birthday present =)
this is mine


pretty?? LOL

went to my favourite place after bought this just to show off the pretty specs~~
ngek ngek ngek
guess where??? xD


p/s: jiu wang ye had finish~~it would be the last day for us to meet
p/p/s: i got a simple life...
p/p/p/s: my bro birthday is around...im going to make an ice-cream cake for him..but, he want to spent with his gf =.=''


end of post

loves
chloe tan

thanks & sorry

thanks for everything u gave
i will keep it as a good memory

sorry if i hurt you again
im sorry...
for 1000x times
even more

i cant give you anything
maybe not even a good memory
sorry about that...
the only & last thing i could give u is freedom
im sorry

hope that you will find your happiness one day
i bless you
sincerely

wish u happy & lucky everyday =)

regards
chloe tan

england eye!!

see this at my mail box
love it!!
heart it!!

great wheel ever!!
beautiful view
brilliant!!


great space, great view
hope that i was there =D
bravo!!
awesome with the lovely fireworks!! love this soooo much
splendid!!



i would be excited if im in one of the cabin
aren't it romantic to spend your christmas/new year/valentine in such view?
but i hate valentine >"<
wish that i could be there in the future
used to save money from now xD
love it so so so much~~

♥

loves
chloe tan

confidence-less

no confidence for myself
and for you

don't trust myself
nor you

what lead this?
maybe it's my own problem
hope to solve it ASAP
but how?

not everything could be patch up
there's still a scar there

feels tired of this
feels 'emo' for this


what is love?
simple question with difficult answer

regards
chloe tan

fake

everything is fake
inside my eyes
inside my heart

i would let you go
let our relationship go
forever
no doubt

i wont cry
i wont shout
i wont break down
nor
hate u
coz it's not worth at all

love is a stupid mistake we had made
i see what i saw
and
understand what i understood

yes
not worth for u anymore
not even a single drop of tear

what u had done for me is a mistake
me either
u had woken me up
from a fake fairy tales
as u know
fairy tales never happened

p/s: hope u live happily ever after

regards
chloe tan

~♥

I
used to

hear him more
to understand him better

talk to him more
to make him feels me

kiss him more
to feel the sense of happiness

hug him more
to sense the warmness he could give


lastly

i love him more
for no reason

♥

♥

♥

loves
chloe tan

a pleasant one...♥

update!!

friday night
i was having tea session with my ex-classmate @ old town
it's was our tea place since it's near to TOLINA
we gossip a lot and talked non-stop throughout the time
and i disconnected from their topics many times..LOL
wish to have one soon
it's great being with classmate =)
went home at 12am

the next day
i was preparing for my dad's birthday cake
my sis and i went for bakery shop to buy all the ingresient needed
fortnately there was still another shop since the one i was going all the time was closed
i managed to buy all the ingredient with a cheap price =)
the cake was oni cost rm20
black forest

the cake and my sis's card


i looks noob here >"<


sis and dad


papa & mama


5 layers...fully satisfied with it =)

before the celebration
my sis, my mum & i went to ecm for his present
we bought a shirt for him and he satisfied with it
after that
went santai for our dinner at night time
dad love the tomyum there and so do i love the spaghetti
we have a great dinner after all
having a celebration at home
as shown at picture above =]

hope daddy happy always
and gets what u hope =)))


went out with dearest
long gai + yc
nothing else to do
that's our only activity could do =D
went home at 1.15am


sunday!!
a pleasant pleasant one!!
my dear and i woke up early in the morning just for a swim at TC
it's was 7am when i being woken up
he fetched me sharply at 7.20am and we headed to TC
search for place to put our bags
jumped into the sea
it's was so cold yet so warm with the dearest
he bullied me a lot with the sand there
i was like being shoot by M16 & sniper xD
lye on the beach and we help each other to buried our body
i used to buried him 1st
since he's big in size
so it takes me a long time to do it xD
and next
my turn
the feeling of being buried was so syok
except my head was being expose to sunlight
and the sand was heavy~~~>"<
went back to the sea again
played for almost 2 hours and headed for a shower
since we didn't take our hp down from the car
i could take any picture there
but i would remember it in heart
thanks dear =)

got a mcd for our breakfast
not a nice one >"<
went back home at 11am

shopping for the whole afternoon and sleep for the whole evening xD
hope for another 'trip' with dear
a free trip for all =)

p/s: the place i got 'M16' is painful now
p/p/s: when can i get another 'trip'? i'm wondering =)
p/p/p/s: 'jiu wang ye' is coming, my dear is no longer free to accompany me =(

loves
chloe tan

love & like

你能分清楚爱和喜欢吗？

喜歡和愛咫尺千里。

當你喜歡一個人時，你想和他在一起，因為他會帶給你快樂；

離開後，你會想念，想著想著就會笑，然後繼續你平靜的生活，並期待著與他再一次重逢。

當你愛一個人時，你想和他在一起，那是一種牽腸掛肚的捨不得，怕他受委屈，怕他不能好好照顧自己；

離開後，你也會想念，想著想著歎一口氣，'不知他現在過的怎樣？'

然後你繼續你平靜的生活，希望他早日回到你身邊。

你喜歡的人在你眼中是天使，無所不能，他總會滿足你的任性的要求。

你愛的人在你眼中是孩子，傻傻的，你不期望他做出什麼'好事'來，只一味縱容他那些讓人哭笑不得的舉動。

你會希望你喜歡的人陪著你，然而你心中想的可能是你愛的人；

你會希望陪在你愛的人身邊，看他在你面前睡得如此安逸甜美毫不設防的樣子，你會微笑，會覺得好幸福。

你喜歡的人傷害了你，你會生氣，並且一定要讓他哄著騙著逗你笑你才原諒他；

你愛的人傷害了你，你只會獨自傷心，因為你怕對他大吼大叫會嚇著他，你憂傷地微笑著，看著他的眼睛，

一旦發現他的眼裡流露出歉意和悔恨，你會立即心疼地摟他在懷裡，那一刻，你也是幸福的。

你可以同時喜歡很多人，你會希望和很多人在一起，

但也許很多年後你才發現，原來你愛的就只有那麼一個，

就那麼一個，怎麼都不會變，你以為把他忘記了，其實只是忙的沒空想起而已，

對於你喜歡的人，你關注的是他的優點；

對於你愛的人，你關注的是他的缺點，並且，那些缺點如果無關原則的話，它們在你眼裡是可愛的，獨一無二的。

喜歡和愛其實只有一紙之隔，任何愛都從喜歡開始，當有天你突然發現，你喜歡的那個人在你眼中不再完美，

而他的瑕疵正如月中的桂影一般讓你更加依依不捨，你會覺得與他光彩照人的一面相比，

你更願意看他在你面前無助的表情，不知道是不是應該祝賀你，總之，你的感情昇華了
——

仰慕不是愛，甚至不是喜歡，當你對一個人只有仰慕之情時，你們在一起便失去了和諧。

有人說愛一個人很累，的確是，因為你想為他承擔，可是愛與喜歡相比最大的魅力就在於，

當你和愛的人在一起時，你的感覺就像回家了！

i love you..
or just like you??

update

update for recent activities...=)

last 2 weekend
i had a tea-time with my dearest friend
unfortunately
i was sick and in a moody mood all day long
1st of all
we went for long gai at 7pm
with alex & choy mei along
went to TC of course
that's our favourite place =)
chit chat in the car and got down for a walk around
it's a nice day
we chatted for lots of fun
miss the day

9pm
lily joined us @ KFC
we sit there by ate nothing
luckily there's no-one scold us for seize the space xD
walked again around TC to wait for others
it's really a nice place =D
i love it <3
JB & joyce come 1st
hamyu turn next
having a 'sai mai lou' since chatted there
all of us having the same drinks =)

2nd round
kemaman kopitiam
nice+cheap+clean+not so crowded place
bobo joined us
but i got no chance to chat with him
since he was sitting far away from me
and i was sick >"<
having some photo shoot but couldn't upload them here
bluetooth was spoiled & i couldn't find my USB
who cares?
went back home at 1am
a marvellous day for me
hope to see them soon again =)))

went for megamall on the next day
chui teng come along
lily, joyce, JB, alex and me
we are bestiesss
4 girls+ 2 guys
went for bowling
i got 2 spare xD
but 3 0marks =/ (what a shame)
alex got the highest marks of all
he's a excellent player

went to ECM for our lunch after bowling >"<
it's already 4pm since there's something happenned in between
black canyon is the best place
everyone praise for the food
sure
i recommend it...xD
went back home at 6pm


sick for the whole week after then


last weekend
mooncakes festival
mid-autumn festival
a great day
my house was having a party and lots of people are coming around
i was busy serving them and oh,
my bro's gf come too
my granma turns to busy...haa
going out with the bf at 10pm
went for supper @ santai
nice place + nice food
i adore the spaghetti muchhhhh
going to go for many times since then
ngeh ngeh~~~xD
after that
went to TC
TC is the best place for gathering on that day
everyone played candle and 'tanglong' there
so
it was damn croooooooowded
we couldn't find a parking and just drove around for some view
went for 'long gai' around kuantan again
that's our everysatactivity
no more other suggestion of going where on saturday night
boring of this life
end of day
back home at 1.15am
my bro was even latter then me >"<

last sunday
fulfilled my time at cousin's house
doing medicure
changed mind lots coz of the pretty sample done by her
finally done with a satisfied pattern =)
yum-cha at night time

end of post

p/s: im going fatter & fatter, but not going to keep fit =p
p/p/s: i miss someone (guess who? not him)
p/p/p/s: busy working recently, sleeping at home at night
p/p/p/p/s: going to pedicure soon =)
p/p/p/p/p/s: not going to update in meantime

loves
chloe tan

漂亮的人生...‏

永遠不要因為工作繁忙而忘記周年紀念日，
生活中每一個特殊的日子是人生積累的最大財富。















經常讓視野中的某些事物保持美麗，
即使它只是插在果醬瓶中的雛菊花。




















把手表撥快五分鍾，
無論做什麼事情，比別人搶先一步，
為自己多贏得一點時間準備。



















冒險就是風險。
如果從不冒險，也就不會有成功的風險。
在冒險中尋求成功的人生吧！














用最喜歡的音樂開啟每一天。
音樂是心靈的歌唱，在每天清晨放飛心靈，憧憬美好明天。



















當和家人有分歧的時候，不管是誰的錯，
先道歉：「對不起，惹妳生氣，能原諒我嗎？」
這是消除分歧的靈丹妙藥。















不要顧影自憐，
當這種感情襲來的時刻，為那些處境更不幸的人作一點好事。
幫助別人可以忘卻自己的不幸。














不要害怕說「對不起！」。
對別人真誠地致歉往往能贏得別人的尊重，
磊落的胸懷是快樂人生的源泉。














當有人擁抱你時，讓對方最先離開你的懷抱。
不要主動放棄愛，除非愛已離你遠去。




















保持永不滿足的好奇心，
多問為什麼，這是富有創造性生活永不枯竭的源泉。














不要過多關注未來所要發生的事情而錯過眼前的美妙瞬間。
學會生活在此刻，一心只想著奔向未來的人，
只會距離生活越來越遠。




















經常打電話問候你的父母。
因為有了愛，所以有了牽掛。
不忍讓別人承受牽掛之苦，這是愛的另一種表達方式。




















慢慢形成這樣的習慣：
即當你進家門時，把你的錢包和汽車鑰匙放在同一個地方，
良好的生活習慣從點滴小事開始培養。














尋找機遇而非安逸，
停在港口的小船是安逸的，
與此同時它的底部將會變得腐朽不堪。















過簡單的生活，因為最簡單的也是最真實的，往往也是最寶貴的。

女孩

其实很多男孩子都不知道，
女孩子在冲他们发火后自己转过身却在不断啜泣。

其实很多男孩子都不知道，
女孩子从来不会真正去生他们的气，
因为她是真的喜欢他在乎他。

其实很多男孩子都不知道，
女孩子只会对自己喜欢的男生唠唠叨叨，
也只会对自己喜欢的人耍性子。

你要知道，
假若她不喜欢你，
她根本不会来在乎你关心你，
怕你做错事情。

你要知道，
假若她不喜欢你，
她根本不会对你发火不会冲你撒娇让你哄她，
在别人面前她都是淑女。

你要知道，
假若她不喜欢你，
你根本就没有本事让她哭泣，
让她即使生气也不会超过2天。

而这一切都只是因为她喜欢你，
而这一切都因为你还不够在意她不够懂她。
　　
于是，
你们时常争吵，
你认为她脾气不好，
她认为你不够迁就她。

于是，
你们总是冷战，
你以为她不喜欢你，
她以为你不在乎她。

于是，
你们总是莫名其妙的彼此错过，
也许擦身而过，
本身就是一种悲伤着的无奈与幸福。

要知道，
凄美依然是美的一种，
并且美的绚丽悲凉而沧桑，
那是更加的美。

因为她喜欢你，
所以她偶尔冲你发火，时常对你撒娇。

因为她喜欢你，
所以她才会生你的气；

而又因为喜欢你，
她才不会去生气很久。

每个女孩子的心都是水晶做的，
晶莹剔透，但是很容易就碰伤摔碎。

每个女孩子都是不设防的，
你那么轻易就闯进她的心，
走的时候却只留下伤害。

她从来都不知道，
这个世界上根本没有可以让她哭的人，
因为真正值得她哭的那个根本舍不得让她哭。

她会很矜持，
她会很骄傲，
她会很冷淡，
她总是嘴里说着你走开，
心里却一直叫你留下。

你了解女孩吗?
　
请你张开你的耳朵，
也请你打开你的心，
去听她心里真正的呼唤，
而不是她嘴里的口是心非。

她会看着你转身，
然后她跟着你转身，
当侧身而过的时候，
你看不见她的泪，
滂沱在脸上心里。

如果你喜欢她，请你多陪她；
如果你喜欢她，请你多宠她；
如果你喜欢她，请你多让她。
如果你喜欢她，请你去听听她内心的声音，
那是呐喊——请拥抱她。

在爱情里，总是彼此伤害，
彷佛这样才能证明自己爱得激烈爱到轰轰烈烈。

可是，爱情里没有孰对孰错；
爱情里更加没有你比我多我比你少。

你爱她，她爱你，如此就已经足够。
不要试图让彼此的伤害，让彼此更加脆弱悲伤。

你们彼此相爱，
你们需要的是温暖是幸福是甜蜜是快乐，不是伤害。

不要用沉默宣战，不要互不相让，
更不要什么话都不讲就冷漠离去。

要知道，你离去的时候，
你的眼睛起了雾，她的眼角泛着泪光。

越是安静战火就越深，这是冷战也是彼此的伤害
无论是怎么的复合，那些伤口曾经存在，抹不去。

请跟她一个拥抱，
用你的拥抱去化解她心里的悲伤与眼角的泪水。

她喜欢你，她绝对不会拒绝你的拥抱，
她只会害怕你的冷漠转身无声安静。　
　　
相爱的人不要轻易宣战，因为冷战带来的伤害，超出你的预计。

只要你喜欢她，没有什么是你接受不了的，
只要你喜欢她，就喜欢她的一切一切。
那么她所有的小性子所有的坏脾气所有的臭毛病，在你眼里都是撒娇。
她喜欢你，她需要的不是你真的转身，她嘴里说着的也不是她的真心话。
她只是想你宠她，想你抱她，哪怕，没有道谦。

...

女孩你会哭吗,男孩你会这样做吗？

女孩给男孩发了条短消息：如果家里穷困潦倒到只有一碗稀饭面对着我们两人，你会把稀饭里的米给我吃吗？

男孩回消息：这还用说吗？但是我认为一个真正爱那个女孩的男孩，就不应该让自己心爱的女人过如此生活。

女孩回消息：可有一个人的回答是这样！

他说，不！我会把整碗的米连同稀粥都给她喝。

这短短的对话会不会感动所有

女人我不知道，可我却被深深打动。

男孩回消息：那么连这一碗稀粥也没有，那个男人会怎么做呢？！

或者有没有想到那一碗稀饭女孩吃了是不是还肚子饿呢？！

女孩认为，男孩应该像那个男孩那样回答：

不！我会把米和稀粥都给你喝！才是真正完美，标准，唯一的答案。

因为男孩没有按女孩的意思回答好这个问题，

女孩和男孩背对背睡了一夜，男孩几次想拥她入睡都被女孩拒绝。

上天有时总是有些不尽人意。

后来女孩和男孩走到一起的时候，

由于种种原因，他们真的遇上了类似于只有一碗稀饭喝的日子。

那天，男孩悄悄地给女孩留个言：

亲爱的，我吃过了，桌上给你留了碗稀饭，你把它喝完。

女孩喝完那晚稀饭，小憩一会的时候。

男孩从外面回来，给女孩带回来她喜欢吃的羊肉串，水果，奶茶。

男孩对女孩说，他找了份临时工作，刚挣的钱，

老板答应先付一部分工资。

说完还拿出口袋的钱在女孩面前晃了晃。

“亲爱的慢慢吃！我已经在外面吃过了。”说完还做了个调皮的鬼脸。

在最困难的那段日子，女孩依旧快乐的幸福着，

男孩倒好像由于工作劳累，身体有些不适。

后来，男孩有了工作，女孩和男孩对他们未来的幸福充满美丽的憧憬。

女孩喜欢看电视，

看到电视中报道多年前在一场大地震中，

一位母亲和孩子被压在废墟下，母亲的奶水被孩子吃尽时，

母亲咬开了自己手上的血管，用自己的鲜血喂孩子，

数天后，人们终于扒开废墟下的母子，母亲已经血流殆尽离开了人世，

嘴角的粘着母亲鲜血的孩子带着天真的笑容，

红嘟嘟的鲜艳小脸蛋获得了新生。

女孩问男孩，

如果我们俩被压在废墟下，

你会像那位母亲样用你的血液使我活下来吗？

男孩对女孩的言语间竟有些激动。

他对女孩说不要老是有这样那样的怪念头好吗？

你是我的女人，我会尽我所能的让我的女人幸福，

在任何你的生命和安全受到威胁的时候，

我会不顾一切的保护好你。

你是我的最爱，

我也不允许你把种种不好的推测用到你的身上，

亲爱的。

周末，

一个阳光明媚的上午，

男孩挽着女孩的手，兴冲冲地逛了一个上午，

买了好多女孩喜欢吃的零食和她喜欢的衣服

走在回家的路上。

两个幸福的小人儿，

再穿过一个路口，

就能到达他们共同构筑的爱的小巢——他们幸福的小天堂。

男孩一手挽着女孩，

一手拎着买来的东西，

男孩在前，女孩在后，

两人走在斑马线上，就要穿过马路了，

突然一辆右转弯车辆，

直直地向离男孩一步之遥的后面的女孩疾速驶来，

眨眼的功夫，汽车就要撞到女孩。

“砰！”

的一声闷响后紧跟着汽车紧急刹车的声音。

一切来得那么突然，被撞者轻飘飘的飞向两米开外。

路面上是一片刺眼的鲜血的红。

“不！不要！”

由于惊吓刚刚回过神来的女孩，

歇斯底里地凄惨叫声撞击着每个围观者的耳膜。

女孩明白，

汽车本来是撞向她的，

在常人来不及反应的一刹那间的零点几秒里，

男孩却惊奇地把她推开了，

自己倒在血泊里。

女孩哭喊着扑到男孩身边，

男孩浑身是血，

女孩大声地呼唤着男孩名字，

围观者说没用了，已经试过男孩没有呼吸了。

女孩不相信，

继续呼唤着男孩的名字，

男孩竟然奇迹般的睁开了眼睛，看了女孩一眼，

带着安详地微笑，永远闭上了眼睛。

女孩明白，

男孩在生命的最尽头还在苦苦挣扎，

拼尽最后一丝气力看到自己的亲爱的小女人安然无恙了，

才放心地闭上眼睛。

那是个多雨的季节，到处充满了潮湿，雨水把天地连成雾蒙蒙一片。

两个人构筑的爱情小巢，

现在只剩下女孩一个人，

女孩浮想起以前两人在一起的点点滴滴。

女孩后悔那次不该因为男孩没有按自己的意思回答她问题，背对着他睡了一夜，

后悔男孩几次欲拥她入睡，都被她拒绝。

她现在好想紧紧的拥着男孩，把那一夜的背对背补回来，

可是再也无法也不可能补回来。

女孩习惯了逛马路时，

身边有一个人紧紧的握住她的手，不用担心那些川流不息的汽车。

男孩总是自己走在有汽车的一方让她走在远离汽车的另一边。

女孩好想再抓住那种安全感，

可是怎么抓也抓不住。

女孩睡觉前，

习惯了，有人给她唱着歌讲着故事入睡，

现在再也没有人为她唱歌讲故事，

她总是难以入睡。

女孩睡觉时，

喜欢踹被子，男孩总是在每一次她踹掉被子时及时的醒来给她重新盖好。

现在那个人再也不能哪怕为她盖一次被子。

女孩喜欢吃零食，

男孩每次从外面回到家里总能给她个小谗猫带来惊喜，

安慰她的小肚肚，

现在她的小肚肚多少天再也没有人安慰。

女孩喜欢吃瓜子，

喜欢吃板栗，喜欢吃橘子，

却不喜欢剥皮儿，

女孩每次畅快淋漓的大吃特吃完瓜子，板栗，橘子后，

男孩的面前总是堆起一堆果皮山，

现在由于剥皮吃那些东西太费劲，

她好久没敢碰那些想吃不能吃的好东西。

女孩现在有太多的不习惯，她只能学着慢慢的把不习惯变成习惯。

女孩整理遗物时发现了一个献血证，上面写着男孩的名字。

奇怪的是她从来不知道，男孩在一个月连续献了三次血，

上面献血的日期更让她震惊，

她清楚地记得，

永远也忘不了那段他们最艰苦的日子。

她明白了那段日子男孩的身体为何那么虚弱，

明白了男孩“预付的工资”的含义，

明白了男孩是用偷偷献血的换来钱给她买来她喜欢吃的东西。

女孩继续整理遗物时，

发现了一份报纸，

意外地发现那场大地震时，

那位伟大的母亲就是男孩的母亲，

那个幸运获得生命的孩子就是男孩，

而男孩又把这份幸运给了她。

女孩泪水涟涟。