how to learn something better?

how to learn something better?
books?
internet?
or something that happen?

i used to choose the 3rd ones...

today, we had a big arguement
i don't even know what's the problem is
but we still had to face it
coz
im crazy.

yes
im crazy today
im out of control and do everything out of my expectation
i cry in a very loud sound
shout out crazily
speedy
and even wanna try to DEAD
goosh!!
im crazy
i don't even know what am i do
what am i think!
have i got any mentally problem?
do i need to meet up with any doctor?
no answer...

i don't know what's wrong with me today
get angry easily
ask something sensitive
and make someone angry
i hate myself
yes
very hate


i don't know how he could make it...
he said sorry to me
did everything to make me happy again
acted cute to make me laugh
and yes
he did angry too
but he managed to control himself
and finally saved our LOVE
why i can't do it?
because he is boy
and im a girl?
it's that the real reason?
i don't know
i just appreciate on what he had done
and learn something
from his behaviour
thanks dear!
thanks for your everything...

loves
chloe tan