arguement

big arguement
again...
the main problem that coz this thing to happen is
i can't wait

wait wait and wait
i couldn't stand with him anymore
10 minutes
30 minutes
1 hour
2 hours
3 hours
i have been waited
why i should wait all the time?
and not him?

he say i date him on sunday just wanna compare with somebody
yes, i admit
but who can tolerate if u can't even do something that's so simple to your gf but with your normal 'friend'?
i really don't understand
am i wrong?
he promised me that he would accompany me every sunday
to overcome my heart-unbalanced
but 1st time he's already like this
how could i believe him anymore?
how could i date him anymore?
i had already call for almost 20 miss calls
he still can't wake up
finally he picked up the phone
say he will wake up
but then
sleep again...

i have been waited for so long time
sms never get reply
i don't even know he's already wake up or not
call him,
get scolded or else scolded by me
don't call,
don't know everything
finally i call again,
he call me to wait
but then i tell him that i wanna brought my mum to buy something
since my mum tell me to fetch her as i had waited for him for so long time
finally, i managed to fetch my mum home
sms him to fetch me now
no reply
10 minutes later
call him
only know he just wanna wake up from the bed
arrgh!!
im so angry!!!
i couldn't stand anymore
shout out
cry out
drive out

why he couldn't understand my feelings?
wait wait and wait
wait at his house
wait at my house either
why i should wait for so long time?
just for a breakfast actually...

he wanted me to drive to his house since the restaurant just behind his place
but i thought he will want me to wait if i go his place
so i refused to do it
but i do a wrong decision too
i still have to wait in my house...

i think
the best decision is
never date him anymore
so i shout out and say wanna broke up with him
yes
broke up
on that time
i just think that i shouldn't wait anymore since i don't need to
cry at gelora
breath difficultly
i don't even wanna live anymore after i told him
that's the hard decision for me
speedy again
stop argue-ing only after he felt asleep

went to his house
give back the money that i lend from him...
and see him because it might be the last chance for me
due to the thing i said...
he still sleeping when i got there
then,
run away after he saw me
i thought he won't stop me to run away anymore
but he called me and wanted me to get back
so i get back since i don't wish to argue anymore
he hug me in his warm chest and kiss me
said sorry...
i cry
for no reason
maybe because of his warmth?
stop argue-ing finally...
get touch by his eyes

next week im gonna date him to kemaman
just wanna meet my friend actually
so would he do the same thing as today anymore?
i don't know
let's see on next sunday
i love you
and im sorry too

love is both sides huh...
i shouldn't be so selfish on being said sorry...